Creative again

Hi All, I'm back in true form ready to take on the world with the economy that exist. I found another passion but it's in fashions. Eventually I'll be finished with my project and show you all.
Time takes care of everything doesn't it.
I love how it allows you to forget the things that seemed to over whelm you.
So on with the good news. It's Christmas and I'm feeling a bit anxious to accomplish all that I need too,I have my creative path back and it's bursting with excitement. Life is so surprising and I suppose that's why I love it so much! It constantly changes and it's all about choices. If you take one road it can destroy you but you are taking a risk and it's not a bad thing, it just may slow you down for a bit to learn the right way. Then sometimes things are like clock work, you can't make a mistake....
Well, what ever direction your going to take just go in with the idea that you want to experience it and let it lead you, ....half way through you will have that feeling that comes over you if it's right or wrong. So with all good thoughts ,I wish you a Merry Christmas and a passionate New Year to experience.

Passion

An Artist Thoughts

I'm a little lost and confused and wondering if I should pursue my art. I had open heart surgery in January 2008, with a heart valve replacement. I had some complications and I know it might be a little to soon to experience my doubts of continuing to do my art.

Something happened during surgery that changed my complete out look on life. I had such a passion to create and now I can't seem to find a single creative bone in my body. Will time take care of what I'm searching for?

My doctor said it may be gone forever. I can't except that, I'm trying so hard to rediscover who I am and my purpose in life. Has anyone else experienced this?

Life is strange isn't it, things that make you unbelievably happy can change in a day. I have always loved life and loved what it offers. I have to find my way back to the things I love. I hope everyone out there has something that brings them to a place peace.

The Vision

It happened January 30, 1999. I awoke around 6:00am on a Saturday morning and went to drink my coffee on the patio like I do most mornings. I sat in the swing and sipped my coffee when a vision came to me. I had just lost my mother January 24,1999 and still in disbelief. My mother and I were best of friends all of my life so, this time was very difficult for me. As I sat on the swing I started to hear music softly playing from some where, it was very beautiful. I looked upon the grass and it became a desert to me. There was nothingness as far as I looked. I do live in the desert but my back yard is filled with grass an over whelming feeling came over me to watch the earth. As I sipped my coffee I began to see the dry earth that had a few weeds but a part of it looked as if it was freshly dug. I could see between the dirt and there was a seed that had been planted. The sun was coming up now and I could see the seed sprouting roots that spread along it's pathway. It kept growing and growing and the sun was shining directly on to the seed now. There was a stem that popped up from the earth as the morning went on I saw it sprout leaves, I watched this stem as it swayed to the music it seemed like a ballet, twisting and turning moving to the direction of the sun. I felt a moment of magic and contentment over me and I soon realized that it was my mother who came here as a seed to grow and flourish and even struggle to reach her destination. It was her life and she was leaving earth. The seed became a beautiful flower that glowed through the sunlight dancing and struggling to reach it's home. As I watched this beautiful flower it went through the clouds and then I noticed it was loosing it's petals. One by one they dropped until I could only see the stem reaching high above me and at that moment I felt God's hands caress it's stem . I knew my mother had left this earth but she was with God and how could I hurt. I have been blessed and soon I was seeing other seeds bloom and dance.